Day 1

Well it's February 16th today, and I could be going to get my 5 day trail membership that I called about yesterday. But am finding I would much rather stay here, it's REALLY cold outside...maybe tomorrow...although doubtful. I have hurdled this "just go" numerous times, I am sure after a few times it will get easier. I mean really I have done it once before...This is pathetic, internal dialog..I mean really I am sure it's hard to get going for most people, why do I think I am so special....probably because my biggest fear in life is rejection....*Sigh*